Unless you’ve been living under a rock, it’s been the week that the world changed…
The C-word is most definitely on our shores and for us as a family have been hunkering down in the house.
There’s nothing like a pandemic to put your life and the way you live into stark light.
It’s been a mixed week in many respects. My anxiety is through the roof. I’ve been feeling incredibly anxious and teary. Trying to home school has been like pulling teeth with DD. I’ve been stressed that our routine has changed so quickly.
On the other hand, it’s felt like a sigh of relief to do things on our timescale. The sun has shone for most of the week. Laundry has been dried on the line for the first time this year.
Flowers have bloomed in the garden.
We’ve been eating better meals, joining in with Joe Wick’s PE Teacher videos on YouTube, helping DD learn how to ride her bike, being out in the fresh air, more than I usually would. Most surprising is that I have lost weight.
Things I’ve learnt this week
- How scary it is that the supermarkets’ shelves can empty when people are scared and that the systems we rely on, can easily fall over, especially being hypoglycemic.
- People will still use microaggressions to assert their dominance in physical spaces regardless of the 2-metre rule.
- That I’m probably going to stay close to the house because of this.
- The sunshine and warmth always make you feel better.
- Actively staying off social media or watching the news is one way of protecting our mental health.
- It’s amazing how quickly places and services can be made accessible and online when they threaten the existence of that organisation. Yes, this is a bit of a jibe, mostly though it’s a relief. There are services and businesses that I wanted to engage with, but would ordinarily take too much energy to physically travel to.
- All the fabulous content and resources are starting to feel overwhelming especially when you’re focusing on trying to get through the day and keep on top of the laundry and making sure family members are ok.
- That said, if you have the chance to join the Isolation Creation group on Facebook, do. It’s been comforting to see fellow creatives work while we’re all under lock-down.
- Feeling like I should be setting up new blogs and making the most of the online business boom we’ve seen this week, yet as I realised before we went into lockdown, I am fundamentally tired and battle-weary. Tired of pushing, tired of trying to get stuff off the ground, tired of politics – nationally and community-wise. Physically tired from being pulled in a million directions of what I should be doing rather than being more conscious of my actions.
- Being down-heartened after realising that the planned funding you were going to do, is taken away to deal with the current pandemic. Leaving me to wonder if the arts world is where I need to be, or at the very least, look at other paths that enable me to be creative.
- That I have been living in panic-mode for far too long and it is no longer necessary nor sustainable. I am in a safe space and place, it’s time to settle into this because…
- I REALLY need to start prioritising and respecting my creativity. It’s been neglected for far too long. Yet to not put pressure on myself to produce for any sort of gain.
- Realising I want to help and contribute to the world more… and how I need to figure that out in a way that I can balance in a healthy way.
While the nature of the current crisis is scary and unsettling in many ways, I’ve also been reminded, starkly, how lucky I am in many respects. I am beyond grateful that I get to hold my daughter and husband close at this time.
A recipe for change?
I have a feeling that the world will change significantly.
How could it not?
In the way we move around the world, yes. Yet also how we interact with each other. To demand more stable ways of employment, to question government response to such crises, and how ultimately we look after each other as a society.
That by being forced to sit with ourselves, that we will finally have the time to figure out how to live life on more our own terms.
Over to you…
What about you? How are you finding the lockdown so far? What resources have you been pleased to see that you wouldn’t normally? Leave a comment below and let me know.